Sigh.. Final paper to go on 24th February, which is tomorrow! Afterwhich will definitely have a chance to rest alittle before starting work at GV again.. Exactly Four more days from tomorrow will be another sad event.. haiz.. hopefully it is not that bad to see our San-Ge [aka Henry] leave Gv bahx. Time sure flies man.. [Getting older] haha. Well. All the Best to me in the battle up ahead =)

I would like to thank everyone for expressing their concerns, especially to those who have been really supportive to me these few days since the incident happened. Well I guess I've learnt quite alot from it, and would definitely acquire more time to understand the person better before getting into a relationship again. Now that it's all over.. time to embrace my accounting exam next week, scheduled on wednesday from 6.30pm-8pm -.-''. It will be my very first time sitting for an examination that late!! no idea what the school is thinking man. haha. Maybe there's a need to prepare for dinner before entering the hall. lol. Think I'll need lots and lots of revision for that pretty soon. Hopefully everything goes well and ends well :)

Woke up at 7.30 am yesterday getting ready and looking forward to celebrate her birthday. As what was agreed upon [between the both of us] on the previous night before the big day, we were suppose to meet at 10am to catch a movie over at vivo around 11 plus. The duration and plan to celebrate from then on would depend on time sufficiency as she has to reach home by 6pm. But unexpectedly, as I was about to leave home at 9.20 am to pick her up from her resident, she replied with an sms asking me to wait for her. I told her ok and asked her where she was, it took her quite awhile to reply me a word saying "outside". After half an hour later, despite trying to reach her to confirm her whereabouts and who was she with.. there was simply no replies at all.. Initially I assumed that she was together with her mother and therefore told her that I'll be waiting for her and contact me when she's free to meet. It was only at around 1.15pm that I received words from her again, telling me to meet her at jp.

After I reached JP, It was then that I realized that she was actually hanging out with a group of friends at swensen.. I was really furious at that point of time.. thinking that why did she delay our meeting at 10 am despite remembering our agreement last night? Her behaviour was really irresponsible as she did not even inform or reply me regarding her whereabouts and a suitable time to meet.. instead, she just cast me aside.. waiting and worrying for her at the same time.. However, knowing that it was her birthday.. I managed to calm myself down before meeting her face to face.. [It wasn't the first time that she has committed such "act of silence"..her trip back to malaysia for CNY celebration was another incident where she simply just took off without informing me.. even after I knew about it and confronted with her before she left the country, she made no effort to tell me how long would she be staying there and simply told me an excuse that this was a last minute trip decided upon and assumed that I already knew..]

When I finally met up with her around 1.50pm, I took her to the nearby neighbourhood where I was hoping that by clarifying the "acts of silence" with her, we will be able to improve on our relationship so that we'll avoid quarrelling and creating any further misunderstandings. But instead.. she argued once again that it was a "last minute" reply by her friends to meet out. I told her that I would'nt mind if she celebrates her birthday with her friends, but a small notification or sms to me would have put me greatly at ease and not worrying for her aimlessly. However, her expressions to me was like totally a different person.. [like finding it a mere nuisance] Under such circumstances, I told her to return to JP and meet with her friends back there..

Upon hearing that, she immediately strolled off [giving the impression as though she has wasted her time and was very furious].. Out of curosity as to why she was reacting in this manner, I chased after her and tried stopping her so that I could get her to really sit down and trash out any unhappiness or problems between us. Instead of calming herself down, she told me that she's sick and tired of this and wants an end to everything.. [To me personally.. I am also sick and tired of her lies and excuses.. and her attitude towards this relationship is simply "couldn't be bothered". The fact that she remained silent everytime when we faced problems shows her immaturity and ignorance [not because she's afraid that we would quarrel]

Although she wants to seek an end to everything, I begged her to give us and this relationship another chance so as to work things out.. I tried pleading all the way until we arrived at her home nearby.. [even kneeled infront of her] but without even any sign of feelings for me.. she told me that she does not want to see me again and turned and walked away.

I really really tried so hard.. and wanted to treasure our relationship.. but I realized that I regretted Kneeling down infront of her begging for another chance..cause from her reaction I could tell that she was never really serious with me from the beginning.. her mentality at this point was to escape from all the problems.. Till this day.. I finally realized how much of a fool I've been from the beginning until the every end.. still.. I'll never forget the time when we were happily together.. I wish that someday she'll be able to express her way of thinking so that she will not hurt the next person that loves her..