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Insanity..

This is really driving me crazy.. I simply can't stop thinking about you.. every moment of my life is painted with a picture of you in it.. if this goes on.. my mind would ultimately drive me to do stupid things again.. Why are you torturing me? Have I really been a fool all these while? Is this really the price to pay for? How I wish there was something I could do to make you return by my side..[Tears and blood perhaps?] At times I wonder.. why of all people it has to be you? but I never once regretted my choice. Cause deep down I know that you are the only one for me.. and no one can ever replace you.. If it is an eternity of lifetime that I have to wait.. I will.. for as long as you remember me.. Even if i'm now a complete stranger to you..

§ my memories, at Wednesday, October 29, 2008 | 0 commented
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Changing changing and changing

Recently alot of things happened over the past few weeks. All the sudden I feel that all these changes are somehow connected and inevitable, although a few weeks ago everything seemed fine. I guess that's call "true irony of life".. you can't really predict what will happen to you in the next phase of your existence.. the only way to ensure and secure happiness is to hope that whichever path that you are undergoing will not be any worse than the present one. So.. expect the unexpected.. and at the same time, To Be Yourself.

§ my memories, at Monday, October 27, 2008 | 0 commented
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It's Wonderful to have someone that cares

Sometimes in life you'll meet up with all kinds of people, the eccentric, hilarious, kind-hearted or maybe the exact opposite :( But it is really rare and fortunate to have someone that is always available for you..especially when you are in a state of despair, lost and sorrow.. She was there to express her concerns.. showing you care as well as making you feel that you are not alone in this world.. I take this opportunity to thank her in whichever way possible.. there's absolutely no words to express my appreciation for you.. Thankyou for being there for me when I needed someone to talk to.. :) Hopefully you won't be too "sianz" by the end of the day!

§ my memories, at Wednesday, October 22, 2008 | 0 commented
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Reunion - Back to Work!

Today's the first day I'm back to work after school reopened. It was hell out of fun to see fellow colleagues around, and I really miss everyone from GV especially sankar (san ge or "PS" hmmm..), Ah de (now popularly known as "ba ba" haha. lol) xiao mei, ah yee, and yun yunz =). Had been a tiring day after EOS.. even saw ah yee cried.. really had san ge, ba ba and me worried.. kept looking for antiseptic cream/spray for her. Luckily it was just a minor burn by the griller.. After that we managed to gather around for suppper just like old times :) There was also a special guest appearance, starring "Niang Niang Empress D" aka Likeng. lol. We sat down together over at the cheese prata shop where everyone ate prata except "ah sheng" (smokey), who ate mi goreng. [ermm.. not to mention "ba ba".. he didn't order any food. Just a cup of Milo "beng".. think he's really looking after his belly liao. hohoho. lol. In addition, we found "ba ba" a new wife called "ma ma" haha. aka horsey. [Guys at work should know who she is? "coc coc coc" walking around? somtimes blur blur one? likes to tell lame jokes like how ah meng killed himself? lol.] But, it's nice having her around though. haha. One last thing [Sankar I hope you'll enjoy reading this ;) ] Well, that's all for today!

§ my memories, at Saturday, October 18, 2008 | 0 commented
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mh invasion!!

wahahahaha. ryan is teaching ooi mei mei right now.
he is too busy to notice me blogging for him.

§ my memories, at Thursday, October 16, 2008 | 0 commented
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Triple Ts - Tired!

Classes these few days have been boring.. was rather tired and worn out lately.. think I just need more time for rest? Realize that my school bag has gotten heavier.. as well as my VAIO.. 3kilo weight is definitely killing my bones. haha. Not as young as i used to be i guess. Tomorrow will be the day that our class will be gathering for Pizza party! Unfortunately.. I'm a non pizza consumer so.. haha. We'll see if there's anything for me then =p

§ my memories, at Wednesday, October 15, 2008 | 0 commented
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Letting you go.. be free

After several times of non stop struggle and quarrelling.. I've finally decided.. its no use to persist and hold on to someone that is not certain of whether her love for you was ever there... Maybe it was really never meant to be.. or we are just not fated to be together in anyways.. however, I have no regrets for falling in love with her.. even though we lasted only for a short while.. Thankyou for writing such wonderful memories in the pages of my live.. I'll never forget you. May you find someone that loves you more than I do.. Sorry that I din't have the courage to tell you over our conversation on phone just now.. but.. if you are reading this.. here is what i wanted to tell you.. I love you (:

§ my memories, at Tuesday, October 14, 2008 | 0 commented
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Back to normal

First week back in in school. Everyone looks the same and trying to cope with the new modules coming up in line. Was wondering if things will get any harder? lol. So far so good though, looks like there's still a long way to go.. Hopefully everything single thing will turn out fine eventually (:

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Loneliness..Again and Forever..

Went to K-box with the guys again.. this is the third time in a week and it cost me a bomb. haha. I hope Yun enjoyed her birthday celebration and had a good time with us yesterday [At least i spent "almost" half a day with her and the group. lol].. Its the First time I shed tears in public .. was feeling sorrow.. tired and lost..[ I thought you didn't care..but the truth is.. you cared more than I could ever have imagined..] I' ve said something that I shouldnt have in the first place, which I ended up suffering the consequence for not realizing that in time.. [a fatal misunderstanding sparkled it all].. but Regardless of how things will turn out, I really enjoyed every moment of my time being with you.. it's my fault that we ended up in a situation like this .. and Seeing how things have developed thus far.. has brought a streaming bleak of pain to my heart.. I don't deserve anyone in this world anymore.. that is how it'll be till the end.. alone.. with regrets more than agony.. once again living in a silent world..

§ my memories, at Sunday, October 12, 2008 | 0 commented
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Familiar faces once again




Went out to BBQ with the polymates today at East Coast Park. I haven really seen them for ages since the last time we went out of the examination hall. lol. Almost can't make for the gathering because I was caught in a dilemma.. was about to inform the guys that I can't go until someone resolved my problem :) have to really thank her big time for what she did. haha. After seeing the guys earlier on I felt really good, cause everyone is in good shape and all seemed doing well during the holidays. Looking forward to see them all again real soon!

§ my memories, at Saturday, October 11, 2008 | 0 commented
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Dead with almost no voice

After two consecutive days of K-Box singing in a week, the GV folks are either - having sore throats , feverish, or down with serious flu infection..lol. Well.. those are not very positive signs as school will commence beginning next week.. -.-'' Hopefully everyone will recover soon before the study schedule resumes. haha. I'm also looking forward to the next phase of my studies. Hope I can do well this semester =)

§ my memories, at Friday, October 10, 2008 | 0 commented
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Non Stop Singing!

On the following tuesday and thurday, there will be two K-Box sessions organized by GV as well as Nicole aka Xiao mei. Wow. Its been a long time since we are able to have such rare opportunity to be singing in big groups like this. haha. Looks like after that lots of people will start losing their voices. [Time to import more honey! lol] I look forward to singing once more. Have not sing in quite awhile since the last chalet at E-hub. Hope we'll have fun (:

§ my memories, at Sunday, October 5, 2008 | 0 commented
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Worries Worries & Worries

Recently, she accidentally cut herself several times while working at the candy bar. Have to search high and low for plasters to cease the wound from bleeding.. Makes me rather worried especially her detail cleaning is coming up next week when most likely there won't be anyone around to help her.. hopefully she will survive the day without getting any injuries.

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A Promise To You

I've made a promise to the girl i love that i ll always love and cherish her [Even though she claims that she sounds like a man] haha. To me, she's everything and part of my life right now. Just that we are not really "official" yet. haha. Here's what i would like to say to her and she might find it mushy though but.. here goes: I love you more and more with each growing day my "dear" lol. Please have breakfast with me soon ok? (:

§ my memories, at Friday, October 3, 2008 | 0 commented
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The loner..

Ryan birthday's on 21 April Taurus Rival Competitive with Loveless-Eternity obsessed with new ideas loves To dream Music Life Lancer A hopeless romantic

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Visitors..



I love..

Music
Singing
Basketball
Bowling
Making new friends


I hate..

traffic jams
backstabbers
Deceivers


I want..

To be happy
To bring smiles onto people's faces


my groove..


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Andersen
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