Happy CNY to everyone! These 4 days have not been a smooth sail for me as I have to toggle between work at GV, Assignments in school and visiting of relatives [Of course the visiting part is the coolest cause of ang baos. haha]

I'm now suffering from a complete dilemma in distinguishing whether am I such a horrible person to communicate with that she simply kept everything to herself infront of me, but somehow.. she could reveal her feelings and thoughts to other people.. Am i such a complete stranger to her? or am i just too inferior compared to some other guy that she can chit chat with on the phone because it's the holidays?

First, she didn't inform me at all that she had to go overseas for CNY until I raised the issue to her. Even if the trip is on a short notice, will an sms be too troublesome? and the way she responded to my sms is like, sometimes blur and dun even want to understand what am i saying.. and sometimes just.. "huh?" am i so boring till I can't even captivate her attention for 1 second?? Yet when she was talking to other people, there seems to be attention and was more lively compared to while we were conversing.

Things that I wanted to say to her: This is not how you love someone.. this is more like torturing someone that loves you. I sincerely hope that you will be able to find someone that you truely love.. and measure the difference as to how you would treat him and me. Nevertheless, we are still very good friends. haha. So start talking to me more from now on ok? =)